Beauty in the Breaking

It is the constant hurting deep in the soul that keeps you longing for the desire to be with someone and to be adored by that same said individual. A feeling over comes the body and even heart, giving you a feeling that you would swear you have never experienced before. You only say this because the pain has been lingering deep within old wounds for so long, burning you until you are almost completely dead inside, then all the sudden someone comes along making you feel the energy that has been hidden for so long. The same hidden emotions streaming out makes the said person seem like a god or goddess beyond all reasoning and slowly become the most beautiful creature. Your heart flutters madly, trying to beat out of your chest and into theirs, wanting your hearts to collide and become one. The relization comes that no matter what he/she could do, it would not make you stop feeling a strong connection to their heart. You can ignore the feeling and go on like nothing has happened or you can follow it and find yourself in a tangled situation, or so called realtionship. The said relationship becomes a process of slowly waiting out all the tears, pain, and suffering just to find out that the said relationship was not all it was cracked up to be and you have, once again, you realize you have wasted time on something that was wrong from the moment your eyes met the other's. Ignoring the tugging from the heart is not such an easy task either. You are left convincing yourself that things would be better had you just leave it the way it has always been and begging the other to change their mind about you, trying to make them see all the ways that you are wrong for them when in reality you could very well be the best thing that has ever happened to them...if only for the moment. When you find yourself at the beginning of such a situation and start feeling a little lost or confused you should trust your instincts but never run and you should never fight the feeling that you get deep, even if it burns like salt in a fresh cut. There is always beauty in the hurt and in the pain and it will always linger there. Things will always change and you will always wonder, "What if" about something. There is always going to be that risk of choice and decision when you come to a new person in your life, so why not throw yourself out there, just to have the chance to say you tried. Give your heart a jump start and remember at the end of it, do not regret anything that made you smile. If only you are happy for a moment in time, it is worth the beauty of pain in the end--as long as it is not intentional.