People

I haven't blogged in a while. You know me and when I cannot write; it's like a bird with a broken wing. Anyway, nothing has really been happening lately. Job at the hotel fell through and I quit simply because of moral reasons (and my boss was a major asshole.) I got a new job working fast food and I pretty much love it. I enjoy the people I work with and the work place, can't get really any better than that. So shit is going pretty well for me lately. I'm proud to say I am happy. For the first time in a long time.


The inner thoughts of Rai:I am realizing that no one has any idea at all of what they are going to do in their lives. Most people, I have found are living to die and the ones that aren't living to die are searching for a purpose to be here. Many individuals are settling for the least they may accomplish just for the simple fact they could die tomorrow and nothing would matter about the situation. I have not seen much of the world since I have been out on my own but I have seen all types of people and watched them closely. No one person, even the same type, will act the same in the same situation. It's kind of like a snowflake, honestly. Even if you did find two of the same shape, they will fall differently.
With all this being said, I am growing into the body that was given to me. I am learning more about myself as I watch others and observe them. I am learning to do things on my own and for myself while also benefitting them as well. I am learning to be a respectful but yet despiteful human being as needed. I am figuring out all the things that I am supposed to be and supposed to know. And no, I am not saying I have my entire character panned out for this life--even the best novels slowly work in character detail. I just feel a little better knowing my true colors are attempting to shine through.

Not much on my mind today, what is on my mind I wouldn't post into a blog online. So lets call this blog quits, try to find some coffee and a cigarette.